I was introduced to self harming by US Military as part of my terrorism indoctrination. US Military would induce trauma that would lead me to feeling suicidal then tell me various means to kill myself then would then try to stop. In the early days when I was naive to what it all meant, I was more complaint. But it came a point were they have no control what emotions they are triggering when they subject me to HAARP electromagnetic frequencies. The program are automatic in my head. Suicide is now a symptom of HAARP electromagnetic abuse by US Military.