I am not a Terrorist
In 2013, I was attacked by US Military who abused, tortured, raped and indoctrinated me in Terrorism and Child abuse/murder sacrifice to pursue a political agenda in Zimbabwe using me and my identity against my will. In a unique set of circumstances and technologies used, my case was not easy to prove.
The mainstream media and those in authority choose to ignore my situation as it did not appear to affect them directly or personally. Although I had got little comfort from telling my own government, I was not satisfied that it all I had to do. I want to tell a lot of people, I wanted to expose the plan and I wanted to see it fall. The only way I could satisfy myself that this was going to happen was to take responsibility of the story and publish my own story online. I was not interested in making money out of this situation by publishing a book, making the information inaccessible to people I considered at risk of this crime, globally.
The decision to develop a project around my circumstance was triggered by a set of sculptures I encountered on my way to an job fair event I had been send to by my job coach. These sculptures were about raising the alarm and reporting terrorism. I thought about the irony of my circumstance. I was living alone, isolated from the world against my will by people who were using Political Neuro Linguistic Programming to indoctrinate me in terrorism to invade my country of Strategic Minerals. I had raised the alarm several times without success and it seemed like I was destined to be victim and a prisoner of these criminals until they succeed in their plans.
I did not want to prolonged the state of negativity I was been subjected to. This project is giving purpose and life despite the odds.
Having done Photography and studying works of different artist, I know reenacting trauma through art can be an empowering and rewarding experience. At the recent Trauma Conference I attended, one of the speakers – Anna, a former medical doctor agreed that, me doing this project, with my experience, could be a healing process I need.
Reclaiming my life through activism has lead me to plan a long term project to run concurrently with other areas of my life. I have divided my Projects into 5 stages of development to span over 10 years with or without PHD lead research. I have dedicated a page to first stage of development of my project – Designing an activism T.shirt here.
It has also motivated me to start a journey on understanding what a clothing of activism is, starting with the T.Shirt.
I took a Fashion and design course in 2017, not only is the course aimed at gaining new skills, it also helping me to improve on other areas of my life like grooming and dressing fashionably. I have complied a few images from pininterest that in cooperate the TShirt as a starting point to the development of my project and capsule wardrobe
With each new assignment, I hope to gain some insight into aspects of fashion for self development. I am required to keep a scrapbook and a reflective journal to reflect on my development and future goals in fashion. One of my goals for 2018 is to lose weight in order to do a photoshot both for my fashion and design course and for my project Iamnotaprototype. Follow my weight loss journey here. I intend on taking photographs of my silhouette to produce images for the second stage of my project development. As an artist who works in self portraiture and do my own photo-shoots, its not usual to take different roles in the production of a photo-shot. One of my assignments is to develop a photoshot using the various career skills found in the fashion industry. This has lead to a more holistic approach to how I approach the assignment. As a fashion stylist, I need to give myself the model, a total makeover and that requires me honing my skills around styling of my hair, nails, fashion etc. See, my development through my Lookbook.