Turns out with all books I buy, I end up carrying them and not reading because of US Military interference, constant headaches , torture and abuse. I want to know more about trauma in an effort to heal myself. Unfortunately US Military keep putting all my efforts backwards. They are trying to silence and hide the damage they did to me. I know I need to get help and trauma counselling is what US Military should be paying for. I want counselling that is independent of these criminals.